Measuring cups are awesome, by the way.
Anyways, so I've been inspired by the Olympics (and my severely declining health) to become fit and athletic. Yes, not even just healthy, I actually *want* to start playing sports and stuff.
First step is, of course, to start eating healthier (again).
I've thrown out all the bad stuff except for a couple of "allowances" for Saturday nights.
Then I bought some tupperware. Since I'm going part time, I'm only working 4 days a week, so I have 8 tupperware containers.
This is what I've done:
2 per day consisting of a fruit one and a nut/mix one.
Right now, four contain a mix of 30 grapes (13 green, 17 red) and an apple each.
Another four contain 1/2 a cup of rice cake shapes and 1/3 a cup of trailmix with 6 peanut m&ms and an oatmeal bar.
Breakfast will alternate with oatmeal (blech) and kashi cereal mixed with vanilla yogurt (measurements to be determined) and a banana.
Supper I haven't completely decided on but I have all sorts of healthy stuff in the cupboards... and some semi-healthy things lol.
In other news, I've decided I'm not working Wednesdays anymore and they will be my Mental Health Day. I got this idea from Katie (coworker) who has Sundays as her MHD. She works two jobs, is a fighter, and various other obligations, so this is very important for her. Sundays is her day to go all out unhealthy eating, watch movies, etc.. Mine will be a bit different, though.
My Saturday nights are going to be the night I can have pop and chips (or an unhealthy snack), but Wednesdays will be my spiritual-artsy day.
My goal is to be doing yoga every day, but Wednesdays will be the day that, no matter what, I HAVE to do yoga. It'll be my day to listen to music, write, pray, meditate, whatever I want, but they have to be good things. Things that will make me happy somehow so I can always count on having one good day of the week (even if the rest of the week is going to hell in a hand basket). So any music I listen to needs to be positive. Any books I read need to be fun or thought provoking. It is me-day.
This also works out well because my friend's nickname is Tuesday and I've decided mine will be Wednesday Rain lol. Yes, I gave myself a nickname that may have something to do with Wednesday Adams and my other nickname "Rain" haha. I think it works.
February was pretty much a write off for my health due to the Olympics. You'd think that a huge sporting event would encourage sports... and it does, just not those 17 days lol. So I parked myself infront of the T.V. those 17 days (when not at work) and was inspired, but consequently missed all my gym days. Soooooo March is back-to-health month. Back to the gym, back to cleaning, back to caring about myself.
I had a pretty terrible week last week (health and family wise) and I'd really like to rebuild myself (especially while Darren is gone).
So on that note, I need to get back to cleaning and prepping for the Month ahead.
Write more later :)
Peace Love Joy
Monday, March 1, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Is Anybody Home? -OLP
"We are all motivated by the desire to make ourselves happy. To do so is right. However, we must keep in mind that too much involvement in the superficial aspects of life will not solve our larger problems of discontentment." -His Holiness The Dalai Lama
It's hard to be alone when you're constantly around others. I think that when we own our own house, it'll be a lot easier. 1) I will have a dog and 2) I'll be able to have any kind of locks/keys/alarms I want and can do whatever I want with the house. This will make me feel safer. The other part is that I will, honestly, be more comfortable in my own home. It's difficult to be comfortable in a place you're only renting, I find. I had this conversation with D today when we were talking about cleaning. We both do the bare minimum but if we owned this place, it'd be a lot more crazy cleaning. We're both neat freaks in certain aspects of our lives, and it'll be exciting when we own our own place.
Another thing I'm looking forward to doing is painting my walls. We each get our own room plus a bedroom that we share. We have our own space, but my space needs to be really creative and inspiring because I do a lot of creative things in it. It's my zen-room. Now at the moment it's creative because I have pictures and cork-boards and mementos everywhere. If you've ever seen One Tree Hill, you'll know what I actually want to do once we own a place. Think Peyton's room but more like me (less dark, basically). I want to be able to paint the walls in weird ways, in any colours I want. I want to be able to change everything drastically at a moments notice. I want to explore my creative side and not worry about my landlords yelling at me.
I think that while material goods are only part of being happy (and yes, I could be happy without gadgets, though not books), having my own place would really go a long way to making me feel safe and stable. So this is my main goal for this year... to have a house that I can do anything with (with compromises for D, of course, but he's pretty artsy, too).
I just want to fill my life with positive things. Artsy things. Inspiring things.
I want to live, not just exist. There's a difference. Is anybody home in me? That's what I need to do is bring myself home.
It's hard to be alone when you're constantly around others. I think that when we own our own house, it'll be a lot easier. 1) I will have a dog and 2) I'll be able to have any kind of locks/keys/alarms I want and can do whatever I want with the house. This will make me feel safer. The other part is that I will, honestly, be more comfortable in my own home. It's difficult to be comfortable in a place you're only renting, I find. I had this conversation with D today when we were talking about cleaning. We both do the bare minimum but if we owned this place, it'd be a lot more crazy cleaning. We're both neat freaks in certain aspects of our lives, and it'll be exciting when we own our own place.
Another thing I'm looking forward to doing is painting my walls. We each get our own room plus a bedroom that we share. We have our own space, but my space needs to be really creative and inspiring because I do a lot of creative things in it. It's my zen-room. Now at the moment it's creative because I have pictures and cork-boards and mementos everywhere. If you've ever seen One Tree Hill, you'll know what I actually want to do once we own a place. Think Peyton's room but more like me (less dark, basically). I want to be able to paint the walls in weird ways, in any colours I want. I want to be able to change everything drastically at a moments notice. I want to explore my creative side and not worry about my landlords yelling at me.
I think that while material goods are only part of being happy (and yes, I could be happy without gadgets, though not books), having my own place would really go a long way to making me feel safe and stable. So this is my main goal for this year... to have a house that I can do anything with (with compromises for D, of course, but he's pretty artsy, too).
I just want to fill my life with positive things. Artsy things. Inspiring things.
I want to live, not just exist. There's a difference. Is anybody home in me? That's what I need to do is bring myself home.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Family Matters.
Of course that title could be taken two ways. The way where family is important, or the way that there are matters concerning the family. My life, at the moment, includes both.
I've come to the realization that just because you haven't talked to someone in years (or ever) doesn't mean you can't start. It doesn't matter that neither party has been very nice in the past, that neither party has WANTED to know the other, and that both parties could survive just fine without the other.
The realization that my grandparents are getting older and more likely to pass on hit me hard. The realization that life can be altered at any moment also hit me hard. I wasn't really in denial about death, but a few times in 2009 I was faced with the possibility of losing people I cared deeply about and that was incredibly hard to cope with. I had been having difficulty coping with life in general because of illness, finances, my parents divorce (three years ongoing), and various other lives moving forward when I felt I was moving backwards at a considerable rate.
I'm lucky that I have a supportive boyfriend and incredibly supportive best friends (Melissa and Kale) or I would probably not be around at the moment. I've struggled with depression over having to quit a good job for my health, depression over not finding out what my health problems actually were, and depression over the fact that I DO want a relationship with other people. I had convinced myself I could be a hermit, but really... what's life without some form of human connection? I maintain that I really could read my life away, but what does that do for me? Yes, I'll probably learn something, but what's the point of learning anything if you don't do anything with it.
My mini epiphany that I should go back to school this upcoming year has done a lot for me. I've been looking forward to it and I really hope I am accepted. I think this career will be a great fit, and even if it's not, it'll be a great stepping stone into future goals I want to accomplish.
I really hope Melissa and I can work something out with CHAT, though. I have some ideas and I'm trying to get in contact with some people to see if they're possibilities.
I think my main goal this year is to just be as optimistic and positive as I can be for myself and all those around me. I have decided I really could care less if people think I'm a raving hippy who loves everyone and everything, because I do! Hate is such an awful waste of time and energy. Love's where it's at.
A lovely quotation I've come across recently is: It doesn't hurt to be optimistic; you can always cry later (Santos De Limos).
Love it!
Why be a downer when people need some happiness? If my friends are sad and I'm cheerful, maybe it'll help. If I go into everything smiling, then at the very least it'll take a little longer to get upset if it's a difficult situation.
I'd like to be remembered as someone full of love and joy and that's why I am now ending letters and notes with "Peace, Love, Joy" because that's what I want for myself and for everyone else.
Despite having a crummy day today, I'm ending it in smiles, and that's a great accomplishment for me.
Hu-to the -zzah!
Peace, Love, Joy
I've come to the realization that just because you haven't talked to someone in years (or ever) doesn't mean you can't start. It doesn't matter that neither party has been very nice in the past, that neither party has WANTED to know the other, and that both parties could survive just fine without the other.
The realization that my grandparents are getting older and more likely to pass on hit me hard. The realization that life can be altered at any moment also hit me hard. I wasn't really in denial about death, but a few times in 2009 I was faced with the possibility of losing people I cared deeply about and that was incredibly hard to cope with. I had been having difficulty coping with life in general because of illness, finances, my parents divorce (three years ongoing), and various other lives moving forward when I felt I was moving backwards at a considerable rate.
I'm lucky that I have a supportive boyfriend and incredibly supportive best friends (Melissa and Kale) or I would probably not be around at the moment. I've struggled with depression over having to quit a good job for my health, depression over not finding out what my health problems actually were, and depression over the fact that I DO want a relationship with other people. I had convinced myself I could be a hermit, but really... what's life without some form of human connection? I maintain that I really could read my life away, but what does that do for me? Yes, I'll probably learn something, but what's the point of learning anything if you don't do anything with it.
My mini epiphany that I should go back to school this upcoming year has done a lot for me. I've been looking forward to it and I really hope I am accepted. I think this career will be a great fit, and even if it's not, it'll be a great stepping stone into future goals I want to accomplish.
I really hope Melissa and I can work something out with CHAT, though. I have some ideas and I'm trying to get in contact with some people to see if they're possibilities.
I think my main goal this year is to just be as optimistic and positive as I can be for myself and all those around me. I have decided I really could care less if people think I'm a raving hippy who loves everyone and everything, because I do! Hate is such an awful waste of time and energy. Love's where it's at.
A lovely quotation I've come across recently is: It doesn't hurt to be optimistic; you can always cry later (Santos De Limos).
Love it!
Why be a downer when people need some happiness? If my friends are sad and I'm cheerful, maybe it'll help. If I go into everything smiling, then at the very least it'll take a little longer to get upset if it's a difficult situation.
I'd like to be remembered as someone full of love and joy and that's why I am now ending letters and notes with "Peace, Love, Joy" because that's what I want for myself and for everyone else.
Despite having a crummy day today, I'm ending it in smiles, and that's a great accomplishment for me.
Hu-to the -zzah!
Peace, Love, Joy
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